Success? Dream Being a Vulcan!
By Odell Sneeden Hathaway, III.
Success? Dream Being a Vulcan!Copywrite ©, 2008 By Odell Sneeden Hathaway, III Being a Vulcan!As I say my love of space saved me and led me to my love of star trek and my dream of being a Vulcan just like Spock. He survived by not having emotions. I saw him and decided to do the same thing. I would be a Vulcan. I would learn logic and I would not have emotions. A shrink would call it emotional suicide, but it was the only way I was able to survive. I wish I could tell you that I was good at it. But the fact that I tried so many times to kill my self or that I used to cry my self to sleep tells me that I never really learned emotional control at least not to the level of a Spock. I think I was 13 years old when I started meditating all because Spock and his father Sarek Meditated. Back then Meditating to me meant trying to still the voice in my mind and learning to listen. When I was a young Adult my priest introduced me to Eknath Easwarn and his style of Meditation. I had been meditating for almost 10 years at that point and I have continued to this day. In fact I have returned to my Old Style of meditating recently feeling it gave me a better connection. Spock also gave me my vocation. I work as a computer programmer. How I managed that I really do not know. In 1977 my parents bought a computer for there business and I just started programming it. It came naturally to me. I think all thoughs years of trying to learn to think logically helped. Also Spock gave me my 1st understanding of
Discipline. That was something that
was totally missing from my up bringing and I have had to develop it after I
grew up witch is not at all easy to do.
I wish I was a lot more disciplined then I am. I have meditated almost
every day for over 30 years (I might have missed 5 or 6 days in that
time). I get up every morning at Another thing that being a Vulcan helped me develop was an imagination. When I was a youth group leader I saw how lacking that is in today’s world. Loving Star Trek helped me to love other Sci Fi and Fantasy and led me to other great works. Like Tolkein and Asimov. Finally Spock also showed me that it was possible to be different and still be respected. To this day I have something of a marshal attitude, my bosses and other people do not know how to take it when I refer to them as Sir. When I was the General Manager of an Electrical Engineering firm I wore a Tie to work every day even though most of the people I worked with wore T-shirts. I even find my self marching in the office sometimes just to remind my self how to do it and because it feels good. I would say that my dream of being a Vulcan gave me. * The ability to survive not just my child hood but all the vicissitudes of life. Earth quake, dinner parties even finding my wife dead on the floor of our laundry. * Discipline both internal and external. * Respect and the idea that others could respect me. * Imagination. * Logic. * Courage. Perhaps not the kind needed to walk up to
people I do not know and talk to them or even trust them. But the Courage needed to build my own
life. To say LA stink’s I think I’ll
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