Success? Lessons: Theme 5, 6 Discipline and Brave!

By Odell Sneeden Hathaway, III.

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Success? Lessons: Theme 5, 6 Discipline and Brave! Copywrite ©, 2008 By Odell Sneeden Hathaway, III Theme 5 Discipline * Discipline both internal and external. (From being a Vulcan) I think it is strange that this only had one line when I do think it is so important in all my endeavors look at the list and they all require it. I just wish I was better at it and I am working on that. How am I doing? Well I am working on it. I know compared to the boy I was when I graduated High school I am a much more disciplined adult. But I know that I need to work even harder at it. I look at writing this paper and the days I let it lie with out adding to it. I need to be better at that. I need to develop much better study habits and continue to improve my mind. Most of all I need to work even harder at deepening my meditation. I still find my mind entering in while I am meditating even after 30 years. Theme 6 Brave * Courage. Perhaps not the kind needed to walk up to people I do not know and talk to them or even trust them. But the Courage needed to build my own life. To say LA stink’s I think I’ll move to Vancouver. (From being a Vulcan) This is another mislabeled category but I think it comes close enough. What I am trying to express here is being able to deal with fear. For some reason the last 8 years of my life has mostly been about this. My Trip to Scotland was learning how to deal with fear even when that dealing with it was giving into it the way I did when I returned my rental car and got on the train. I could have worked and gotten over my fear of driving on the wrong side of the road but I realized it was not worth it. Then my whole marriage was about dealing with fear and finding out just how strong I really am. Marriage is supposed to be about trust and my Marriage was about that above all. But not in the normal sense, most people would think it would be about trusting each other and depending on each other. Oh I could depend on my wife alright. I could depend on her stealing, doing drugs and just about anything else she could think of to hurt me. But I found out how to trust my self. How to know that no matter how much she hurt me and her self that I was going to be strong enough to survive it. How am I doing? I am not at all certain. I think I am doing well but I have always thought of my self as a coward. I know that many of the things I have done in my life had taken tremendous courage. Like moving up here or learning to fly. But other things I have not stood up to so well. Like staying with my Wife. Was that love or cowardice? I would like to think it was courage but there is a huge part of me that is afraid of confrontation that I might have stayed just because I was afraid of leaving. Success? Lessons: Conclusions!

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